developing something

Well I have taken a leap, at the moment I'm developing the tube sketches I have been doing. I am very inspired by the shapes, but I don't know really what I am doing.

Painting and drawing makes me feel so much more satisifed and happy yet it can be so painful and frustrating. Sometimes I feel like tearing at my own skin. Somehow it still lifts me up, someone once said 'painting connects me to the earth'.

So that is where I am, loving it, hating it, and needing to do it as much as I can. I don't really know what my making is about...I am just compelled to do it.